i usually tend to write in here when i'm having problems in life... and so here i am again.

this will be one of those vague entries that will make sense only to a very select few people.  the main purpose is for me to look back years down the line and smile at my idiotic thought process.

i've found that my one turn-off from people is when they lie or cheat.  i dont care if they do that to others but being who i am, i tend to have a very good gut feeling (which is 99% correct) about when i'm being cheated or lied to.  when someone lies to me, my reaction is to HATE them.  especially when it is about something that is very personal and important to me.  no matter the amount i care about the person, the fact that they lie to me about something material will turn me off about them.  and i've also found out that i'm very good with mind games that tend to reveal a lot about people to me - their past, present and why they do things.  i can get information out of people without them knowing which is why i claim that my gut is so successful in judging people.  when i say stuff like this, i feel like my ma/grandma who claim similar things so i guess i have their genes in the ability to understand people.  as i was talking to namita the other day, i also realized that i tend to allow others to walk over me in things that dont matter while still having complete control over the situation so that i can interrupt them if they do something that is against my will.  this has been a forte that i've learnt through my dad - his patience, and just not caring about small things. 

on another subject, i really miss conducting.  it was a true love of mine and i remember the time when i had a ritual such that i used to conduct 'the rise and fall of rome' or phantom regiment's 2003 show before any exam that i took.  those were freshman days.  i havent conducted in the last year because i've tried to move on in life from the band life that i lead because i really miss it but know i have no time for it.  i've continued with a cappella and other forms of music but conducting has been completely cut off.  i did want to pursue conducting at berkeley, but the bastards make you take the whole music program in order to do that.  either way, i think im going to start conducting again, in private because it has this calming effect on me when i'm down or nervous about something. 

Current Thought: Into The Storm... Yes, I know its a song but I'm guessing that I'm about to walk into a storm in my life soon.  Luckily only 1 week of finals and then I have a month to figure this storm out.

Until further pains,
Ankit

Currently Reading The Search: How Google and Its Rivals Rewrote the Rules of Business and Transformed Our Culture By John Battelle see related

Trip to Monterey - here are some of the fun memories:)

1. deciding to go to santa cruz @ enjoying the boardwalk with anurag/sarika/anu
2. eating @ lil ceaser’s $5 pizza deal on top of rented car – DESI STYLE!
3. Swing Dancing in front of Jazz club
4. Almost Stealing wood from Albertsons after waving money to the cameras since the store was closed
5. lighting the bonfire with a wall of peopleJ
6. eating smores while hearing people tell their innermost secrets
7. going on a 2 hour walk with pallav @ 330 AM
8. freezing my ass off on the ground with nothing to put on me and barely sleeping
9. Eating a GRRREAT Breakfast
10. Singing “Balle Balle on Sunday Sunday” with pallav and rishi on the streets of downtown Monterey
11. Chicken-fighting with nina on my shoulders against atef/anu
12. Kayaking
    1. Toppling over rishi
    2. Toppling over Atef/Sarika and then getting toppled
    3. Rescuing the girls and then freezing our balls off (atef and ankit)
    4. Having our kayak float away so having to swim in the cold pacific ocean
    5. Not having paddles so having 2 other kayaks get us paddles
    6. Seeing sea otters and other animals that stink
13. The hot towels after getting back to the kayak shop
14. The thai restaurant where rice/soup/tax/tip costs more than an entrée
15. Taking pictures with 10 cameras flashing all at onceJ

4. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Pink

5. How is the weather right now? Pleasantly Windy

6. who was thee last person you talked to on the phone? Chaitanaya

7. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Legs

8. Favorite type of Food? Modern Improvisational

9. Favorite alcoholic Drink? Don't drink

10. Favorite place to shop? Gap, Kohl's (SHIT ITS CHEAP!)

11. Hair color: Black

12. Eye Color: Black

13. Do you wear contacts? No

14. Favorite Fast Food? Taco Bell

15. Last Movie you Watched? Van Wilder

16. Favorite Day of the Year? October 10 :)

17. Are you too shy to ask someone out? No

18. Summer or Winter? Summer

19. Hugs or kisses? Kisses

20. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla

21. What books are you reading? The Last Lion - Biography of Winston Churchill

22. Piercings? None

23. Fav. Movie? Recently, Hitch!

24. Any Pets? Nope

25. Butter, Plain or Salted Popcorn? Buttered/salted

26. Dogs or cats? EWW neither

27. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M.? Let me sleep 

28. Do you still talk to your best friends from intermediate school? A couple yes

29. What is on your desk? Lamp, Bottle of Water, DVD - culture show, subwoofer, monitor, garbanzo beans, pens, pencils, pencil sharpener, radio, flyer for party, wallet, matrix reloaded, stapler, iPod, cell phone, my arm

30. Rock Concert or Symphony? Symphony.

31. Play or Opera? Play

32. Have you ever fired a gun? No

33. Do you like to travel by plane? Yes - short journeys

34. Right-handed or Left-handed? Right-handed

35. Smooth or Chunky Peanut Butter? Medium

36. How many pillows do you sleep with? 8

37. City and State you were born in? Mumbai, Maharashtra

38. Ever hitchhiked? Yes

39.Who's your cell phone carrier? Cingular